pre-op

The Day Of by Nate Geballe

I'm a little more nervous than I was earlier. I have butterflies in my stomach. That anticipatory feeling is rushing through my bloodstream. Everything will be ok. Everything will be ok. Or atleast I think everything will be ok. I'm hungry right now but not starved. I'm thirsty right now but not parched. I just feel ok. I guess I am ok. See you on the other side. 

Today I FEEL ok. 

Day 6 by Nate Geballe

I can't believe the week is almost over. At the same time, I can't believe the week isn't over yet. I just want it to be January already. Bypass everything that I don't want to face. I feel very avoidant at the moment. I don't feel weak so I cannot use that as an excuse for not doing my work. Well, I could but I don't think that would be very productive. 

Same story every morning. I wake up ready to eat breakfast and then come to the sad realization that I have a protein shake to force down. No food till dinner time. I thought about stopping at fast food on the way home. That's seriously not an option though. 

I plan on shooting today. Documenting a little bit of me documenting myself with still images. I should also do another diary today. It's important to stay on it. I wonder what they will say when I show up to surgery with a tripod and my camera. Can't forget the remote! It will be more helpful than ever...

Today, I FEEL impatient.