holiday

Day 18 Post Op by Nate Geballe

It's ALMOST CHRISTMAS! I'm going home for the holiday on Tuesday. I'm not looking forward to the drive but am excited to see my family. I haven't been able to exercise much because my back went out over the weekend. Today I will try to walk around the block and see how far I get. 

I shot a bit last night. It went in a really interesting direction. I feel like everything that I've done lately has motion included. Maybe it's because I feel like I'm in some sort of whirlwind. None of it feels real and I constantly forget that surgery actually happened. Maybe that will change over time. 

Today I FEEL anxious. 

Day 11 by Nate Geballe

Today is travel day. Many many hours in the car. I might just drive myself crazy thinking about food. Good thing I won't be traveling alone. I don't think that I could do it by myself at the moment. I would make the first fast food stop I could. 

I slept a good part of the morning away. I just would rather kill the time I have before departure asleep I guess. My scale arrived in the mail last night. I stepped on and I'm convinced it's inaccurate. It says that I've lost over 20 lbs. I suppose it isn't too out of the ordinary considering I'm not eating much at all and most of it is coming from protein shakes. I would be very happy if it were true. It would be so satisfying to show them at Cedars that I really did it. That I took it seriously and lost some weight. Better yet for myself. 

Today I FEEL nervous.