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Day 9 Post Op by Nate Geballe

Today is a new day! I am on stage two of my new meal plan! Soups! Pudding! Yogurt! Almond Milk! FUCK YEAH! The constant protein shakes, water and occasional chicken broth was making me feel shitty. I haven't had solid food in over two weeks. That's crazy to me. No wonder I keep having dreams about stealing and eating EVERYONE's mac n' cheese. Haha. 

I haven't really shot in a couple of days. Makes me feel down on this project. That I'm not doing enough. But honestly, I JUST HAD MAJOR SURGERY! I am doing ENOUGH! But I will say this, I will make more of an effort to shoot a little and do more video diaries. That is a must. Must must must. 

Today I FEEL excited? Weird...

Day 5 by Nate Geballe

I know I said this yesterday, but I seriously wake up every morning thinking everything is going to go back to normal again. That I'll be able to eat again. I find myself in periods throughout the day thinking that I can eat but then a huge stop sign presents itself. I curse the universe when this happens. 

Thanksgiving is right around the corner. I really don't know how I'm going to be able to deal. I know it's just food, but damn. I'm really hungry. I keep thinking about that scene in 101 Dalmatians. The little pup exclaims while turning his head around, "I'm hungry Mother, I really am." Now I know I'm not a cute, hungry little puppy but it seems fitting at this time. 

On another note, Although I am terrified, I am actually really excited for the coming months. I just want them to be here already. I feel like this is going to be a big year in more ways than I can imagine right now. More will come to light as time progresses. 

To end this today, I FEEL ok.